Finally I...

...overcome the fear of driving after stop driving for 5 years time. I was actually develop a driving phobia after an accident back then. It was during my working day, not married, in one fine morning, I drove my brother's car and stuck in the jam at a traffic light area. I was actually need to step on the break pedal to stop, I don't know why, lost control, went and accelerate. Bang! I kissed on the back of a BMW and that BMW don't know why go and bang the Wira in front of him. It was so horrible at that time and since no one let me drive anymore...terrible huh?

All these while, I rely on hubby and my family members to drive me here and there, near or far. Or, worst come to worst I'll go places by myself with public transport. It is not so bad too when take a public transport, but when come to emergency or little things need to be done, I feel I'm so useless for not driving. So, for a SAHM who not able to drive, very bad, I can stay at home for 6 full days without going out. I know I couldn't stop driving for the coming years and I actually have the urge to learn back driving and build up the confident of driving since after Terry was born. But that time just say say only, no action and hubby also not support. As now Terry has grown up, the more I need to learn and drive.

Since hubby changed a smaller car, I have the opportunity to drive more frequent. Few months ago, on and off my dad will accompany me to drive near and far without tagging Terry along. I'm just like a new driver (like those with a 'P'), many skills I need to pick up again and learn how to handle while driving on the road and parking. I will still get confuse when comes to reverse turn and parking. Last 2 weeks, finally I got the gut to drove alone to the market. Ya, I go damn early in the morning, to get myself a good car park. I'm very comfortable driving a small car and may be because of that I'm more confident and I feel everything is easier to handle.

Today, I'm so proud for the little achievement I've done for the first time, I drove out A.L.O.N.E with Terry. No choice, I really got to go out as Terry was down with flu. Went to the paed there bought a bottle of flu med. Although it is just a short distance drive, but I'm still happy enough because I managed to handle everything without trouble anyone. The boy is good enough, let me buckle him up at the back seat and sit quietly while I'm driving.